Pourquoi j'ai choisi d’être en silence depuis 6 ans | Sadhguru

The speaker, Pooja, recounts her journey into silence, which began five years prior. Before this, she was an artist seeking inner satisfaction, exploring various creative avenues without finding true contentment. Her path shifted dramatically in September 2019 when she participated in Kashikarma and experienced her first in-person Darshan with Sadhguru. Upon Sadhguru’s entry, the atmosphere in the room transformed, and she perceived invisible waves, though she initially felt nothing herself. During his singing, she felt as if everyone else around her disappeared, and she could only see Sadhguru amidst a spectrum of colors and light, leading her to question if something was wrong with her eyes. After this Darshan, she felt an urgent need to be in his presence again. Ten days later, she attended the culmination of an "inter-engineering inter-experience" in Noida. Again, Sadhguru's entry brought those invisible waves. This time, she recognized the experience as beyond rationality. When Sadhguru looked at her, she felt his gaze pierce something within her, leading to a profound sense of liberation, as if a part of her was dissolving, making her feel incredibly light. At that moment, her sole desire was to fully experience and prolong this feeling of presence. She began actively seeking out Sadhguru's events, attending a Diwali Darshan in Tennessee, followed by Mystic Eye in New York, and Interim Institute programs in Dallas and Toronto. She also volunteered for Youth and Truth in Toronto. Her life became centered around Sadhguru, and she learned about an upcoming Samyama meeting in Toronto. Although unfamiliar with Samyama, she attended and, upon Sadhguru's explanation, felt a deep, lifelong desire surface, accompanied by an urgent need to participate. On February 15th, she arrived at the ashram. To her surprise, she received a call from Sadhguru's office, informing her that Sadhguru wished to meet her. Doubting why he would call someone new like her, she sat with her eyes closed until Lakshmiyaka asked her to go out and locate her phone, revealing a missed call. Upon returning the call, she was told Sadhguru would receive her at 2:30 PM and to arrive 15 minutes early. The reality of the meeting struck her. During their meeting, Sadhguru looked at her and asked if she was "stuck with him." He inquired about her parents' well-being and their support for her being there, which she confirmed. Sadhguru advised her to continue her Sadhana, practice regularly, and spend time in Dhyanalinga. When she mentioned her desire to participate in Samyama, he simply said, "all is fine," but reiterated the importance of Dhyanalinga and declared that from that day, she would be in silence. Thus, on February 17, 2020, she began her journey into silence, which she has maintained ever since. Her daily routine involves attending to her duties, spending time in the temple for Sadhana, having brunch, and then dedicating hours to Dhyanalinga. The initial phase of silence was challenging, with fluctuating mental and emotional states. However, she emphasized that no amount of gratitude could ever express her appreciation for the consecration of Dhyanalinga, which became a sanctuary where she desired to be nowhere else. This practice helped her experience the "distance" Sadhguru speaks of – a separation between oneself, the body, and the mind. Initially intermittent, this state became permanent, bringing a profound clarity that was more an acceptance of not knowing anything. She began spending hours daily in Dhyanalinga. Though Sadhguru had not specified the duration of her silence, she decided not to ask, trusting that what needed to happen would. After a year, Sadhguru called her to ask if she would participate in Samyama as a Sadaka, to make his presence accessible to participants. This was the first time he had asked her to participate in something. When she inquired about preparation, he simply instructed her to be immobile and in Dhyanalinga, as intensely as possible, without any specific intention. Consequently, she increased her time in Dhyanalinga to five or six hours daily. The day before Samyama, Sadhguru called again, asked if she was ready, and expressed his happiness with her, assuring her it would go well. He then placed his hand on her head, an experience she described as inexpressible. Samyama began the next day, opening a "whole different dimension of silence." She experienced a dimension beyond the body, mind, and energy, feeling something non-physical. Her immobility deepened beyond physical stillness, reaching a profound, timeless state of intensity. In this deep silence, she lost contact with time, unaware of how long she sat. She realized she possessed a capacity to sit for extended periods, and the deeper the silence, the easier it became, despite physical sensations. In a state of Samyama, she described being aware of everything around her without interference. She reached a point where she felt she was no longer a "face" but simply a presence, and even the "person" experiencing this presence seemed to dissolve at times. This expansion grew with each Samyama. The invisible waves she first felt in Sadhguru's presence began to manifest automatically, even when he wasn't physically present, leading her to believe he was nearby. Her relationship with Dhyanalinga also transformed, moving beyond emotional guidance to a deeper consciousness and energy. Experiencing Sadhguru in such a vast way, she came to understand him as silence, immobility, and consciousness – "He is everything." Sadhguru later asked her to be initiated into Shunya. She feels privileged to be an instrument for Sadhguru's work, believing that if such a transformation is possible for her, it is possible for anyone. She concluded by stating that if one does not explore the dimension of silence, they miss out on life itself, and expressed her hope that everyone experiences this. She remains in silence, the duration known only to Sadhguru.